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[Nov. 7th, 2009|04:03 pm] |
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the bruises came back again. i really have no idea why i am getting those bruises. seriously. i am getting worried actually. and because of that, i will go for a medical check up this coming monday. i know i've been telling some of you that i'm going to get it checked since October but i just can't be bothered to. i thought those bruises will go away soon. i just got to give them time to disappear. unfortunately, that's not happening. in fact new bruises keep surfacing on me. its not painful when i put pressure on them. but they looked horrible. dark bruises. some even have that blue-black colour. the most affected area, my legs. the bruises are everywhere. they are on my knees and shin. why oh why must these bruises appear on me? to be honest, i am afraid to go for the medical check up because im afraid to hear things that i don't want to hear. i hope everything is fine. i really hope its just normal bruises. i don't want to be sick. i want to be healthy. i am still young |
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| My LATELYs |
[Oct. 11th, 2009|12:58 pm] |
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Here are my LATELYs, not in any order of importance. - Lately, i have been thinking alot about this someone.
- Lately, i have been sleeping late.
- Lately, i have been staying out late at night.
- Lately, i have been smoking alot.
- Lately, i have been spending more time with my friends.
- Lately, i have not spend quality time with pa and mami.
- Lately, i have been getting bruises.
- Lately, my poo is green in colour, like those of a baby's.
- Lately, i have been taking H to quench my thirst.
- Lately, i have not been talking much to people at home.
- Lately, i have been getting this feeling that i should find something new to do.
- Lately, i am always hungry.
- Lately, i have not been watching much tv.
- Lately, the desire to move out and have my own place to stay is getting stronger.
- Lately, the idea of cutting myself with a blade is playing in my mind.
- Lately, the idea of running does not appeal to me anymore.
- Lately, i have been thinking alot of having my own bike.
- Lately, i hate S for wanting to be like me.
- Lately, i have been throwing away my money on nonsense stuffs.
- Lately , i have been having this desire to keep my hair long.
- Lastly, lately, i am getting this desire to just get myself really wasted and forget all my sorrows.
So there, these are my LATELYs. I am not in a depression state or what not. Its just an entry to give you all a peek of what is going on. Okay cheerio merio, back to work for me =)
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[Oct. 10th, 2009|04:09 pm] |
Its been awhile now. I have alot to share actually. Where shall i start? Okay i shall start with A since my last entry was about A. Here's the deal. A and i have stop contacting each other. The reason? Well my bestfriend strongly believe that A has been lying about A's true identity. After much thought, i have finally come to terms that indeed A has been lying to me. And i don't blame A for watever that A has done. No hard feelings. Oh wells, 18year olds are just bored with their lives that they have to do this kind of things. I must admit kids these days are just very creative. tsk tsk. To A, watever that u've done, i have put everything behind. But do remember that karma will do its wonders one day =)
Okay next. My bestfriend passed her TP last Thursday! Now,im the only one left. I feel kindda pressured because both my girls ( Renny & Manda ) passed their TP with just one attempt! I want to be able to do that too. We shall see how things turn out come 22nd Oct =/ I am keeping my finger crossed.
And lastly... I AM MISSING SOMEONE =(
and that person is HAMBALY RAMDAN.
i miss my brother so so much.
he's away in Taiwan right now.
30 days....30 days......
hai hai hai
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